Finally and Regret

Finally i have to forget about her but it is also hurting me also, like thousand pins penetrate through my heart. Tonight will be the night i cant forget about it and insomnia tonight.

A message

Today had a extremely bad cough but still i went to school.... just for awhile because i had to pass up my works and somethings to my friend in order to make my like 1 releases her stress. Just only 1 day, the rate of their relationships grows a lot ( if u know who i meant ). I totally had no mood at all on that time. But suddenly she knew everything about my life,my leg pained i shall jog when i'm unhappy. So i will leave the message for her if she seriously saw it.


Fish:

         Hey fish, you damn lucky today. God normally helps me but this time he helps you. Once you said don't jog when i leg pained, i wanted to jog d. while i was jogging halfway i saw 2 of my friends. I chatted with them and did some stupid and dangerous actions till we went back. Thanks to God, i didn't jog at all. I wanted to tell you, if i go to jog because i sad. Every time i sad because of thinking you and z. Every time i heard you and z together, sitting together, studying together even playing together. I definitely feel angry and no mood just like today. Indeed i hold my pain to jog because i know that leg pains rather than heart pains. Therefore, i don't want you to know my leg pained even though i acted it like nothing. I don't want you to worry about me, i just want you to be happy how we used to be last time. Fooling around, caring you, teasing one another and etc. I think i would like to stop my message here because i can't hold on my tears anymore.

You treat 100 times to people but people will just know 1 of the times

Right Or Wrong?

Guess what? I started to talk back to my like 1. Indeed it was a happy thing but i talked back to her because i don't want her continue to be so stressed up about this relationship. I had been making her sad for how many thousands of seconds. I thought there was still hope between me and her so i prepared the biscuit which she given to me . I wanted to share it so that we could have made some good memories again but god was making fun of me. Her like 1 gave her 2 currybuffs ( i think i didn't spell it correctly ) and i started to think to myself. After thinking, i took halfway out the biscuit and looked for awhile and i putted in to my bag. Perhaps i shall keep this biscuit as my souvenir till the day i die. Besides that i made my leg even worse, i didn't want her to worry about my right leg so i jumped several times so that she didn't need to worry about it.

heart hurts heart, must be very pained

LOVE

What is love? Nowadays, people say love is like a game. Once you got the other one, you are the winner; if u can't, you are the loser. But as a smart thinker or a guy uses his brain all the times ( like me )      will think that love is one cares and protect one another. Love is not like game, once u lost, you will be depressed or despair until certain periods or longer. Additionally, it is like a gambling. All the efforts and feelings that u had put in but till the end, u will never know it will be yours or just gone.

No way!

One of my best memories.

Satisfied, i sprained my leg today during PJK period. Sigh, sure can't jog today till next week. I jog due to 2 reasons: 1 is exercise and the 2nd is no mood or sad. What a sad case man, no mood today and still can't jog.I sad because i didn't know the girl who i like got scolded by the canteen lady because of buying a packet of ice during recess time just because i sprained my leg. I wish i could back to the old time, jogging with my friend(s), bullshitting around once we finished it. Old days were seriously given me good memories.

I will still wait for you =)

Even though how tough i went through, how i avoid or angry you or there is no way for us to turn back. I will still wait for you , like the picture holding the rainbow umbrella standing by your side, share my heart with you.

Wait For You - Elliott Yamin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8fL4eH1SY-M

The saddest thing ever in my life

Today, 9th of September of 2012. It was told that the world would be gone during the year 2012, but it hasn't. I continue to write my blog because due to my boredom and wanted to say things that i couldn't tell in life.


Life is so cruel and reality that a person can't imagine it. I used to be a fool in my school. But thanks to god, i found my true friends. But an unexpected thing came to me.

I am a form 4 student. I know i come up to this stage will be more mature than i was but i am wrong. As i said, there are 2 types of friends : bad and good. I had a crushed on this girl when i just met her in my class. Her 1st impression for me was she was tall, cute, pretty and childish. It was so great that i first talked to her. We had such a good memories: teasing one another, did some foolish things and etc. Everything goes fine but this unexpected thing finally came to me. People normally say humans have sixth sense. Indeed, it is true. i have a friend who is same class with me. He had a curshed on her too but what i hated was before he had a crushed on her, he also had a crushed on another girl and confessed to the girl but failed. The girl who i fell in love with told me she had a bit feelings with my friend because he confessed to her. During the moment, i was totally upset and heartbroken. But i didn't angry at my brother. In fact, im trying to give him the chance.

I'd been saddened for nearly a week, avoiding her like avoiding a ghost. The reasons i didnt want to talk because i wanted to get rid of the memories between me and her. Besides i didnt want her to have an options. I seriously wanted to care more and spend my time with her. It hurted me after i received a message from her. she said:" if you dont want to care about me, please dont waste your time anymore."

Starting the day onwards, i forced myself didn' talk to her, made her angry inorder to forget our friendship but i was still too soft. I can't care about her so i had to ask my friends to take our my mission. Until this day, i also hope a miracle will happen to me. I seriously hope that this day will come. " sobbing "