The saddest thing ever in my life

Today, 9th of September of 2012. It was told that the world would be gone during the year 2012, but it hasn't. I continue to write my blog because due to my boredom and wanted to say things that i couldn't tell in life.


Life is so cruel and reality that a person can't imagine it. I used to be a fool in my school. But thanks to god, i found my true friends. But an unexpected thing came to me.

I am a form 4 student. I know i come up to this stage will be more mature than i was but i am wrong. As i said, there are 2 types of friends : bad and good. I had a crushed on this girl when i just met her in my class. Her 1st impression for me was she was tall, cute, pretty and childish. It was so great that i first talked to her. We had such a good memories: teasing one another, did some foolish things and etc. Everything goes fine but this unexpected thing finally came to me. People normally say humans have sixth sense. Indeed, it is true. i have a friend who is same class with me. He had a curshed on her too but what i hated was before he had a crushed on her, he also had a crushed on another girl and confessed to the girl but failed. The girl who i fell in love with told me she had a bit feelings with my friend because he confessed to her. During the moment, i was totally upset and heartbroken. But i didn't angry at my brother. In fact, im trying to give him the chance.

I'd been saddened for nearly a week, avoiding her like avoiding a ghost. The reasons i didnt want to talk because i wanted to get rid of the memories between me and her. Besides i didnt want her to have an options. I seriously wanted to care more and spend my time with her. It hurted me after i received a message from her. she said:" if you dont want to care about me, please dont waste your time anymore."

Starting the day onwards, i forced myself didn' talk to her, made her angry inorder to forget our friendship but i was still too soft. I can't care about her so i had to ask my friends to take our my mission. Until this day, i also hope a miracle will happen to me. I seriously hope that this day will come. " sobbing "